I have just realised why I am not looking forward to Christmas. Apart from the fact that you will not be here, it will be the 30th Anniversary of our first Christmas together as a family. Laura had just turned 10 and Alan would have been 7. I remember giving you my "Box of Delights" for your present cos we were a bit short of money back then, but remember fondly how much you loved opening each morsel inside it!, Please think about me as the season unfolds with all I have to do. I still cry everyday because you are no longer by my side, but I know you are still watching over me!! Your Love and Your Life. Paul.xxxxxx